"End of Holiday" - yes it nearly is. These Winter holidays have been great this year - not sure why. Haven't been away, spent a few mornings working at Coffee On Line, really haven't done anything outlandish or exciting. So why have they been great?....
Since Dad passed away 4 years ago I have spent a lot of time 'thinking' about my parents, my family and my life of 40 years as it is now. 6 months of therapy with a beautiful psychologist called Veronica (who loved! black tea and shortbread creams) back at the beginning of 2008 was the best thing I've ever done (birth of BMJG excepted). I have often told my friends that 'The Happiness Trap' is a worthwhile read and going through this with Veronica made it also more rewarding. Not only did I come to terms with the 'delayed grief' I was experiencing, but I learnt so much about being 'alive' not only when things are fantastic but moreso, when life's direction sometimes takes a turn for the worse. Most of us who teach yearn! for the holidays to come, but then when it's here we sometimes struggle to really relax and just 'be'... usually I am like that, but not in the Winter of 2009. The many hours of just having nothing in particular to do has been great. I really am at peace with my life - hopefully I am only half way through it - but at this point the word 'fine' doesn't only mean 'end' in Italian it also means 'healthy and well' in English (amongst other meanings) so I'll go with that...
Since Dad passed away 4 years ago I have spent a lot of time 'thinking' about my parents, my family and my life of 40 years as it is now. 6 months of therapy with a beautiful psychologist called Veronica (who loved! black tea and shortbread creams) back at the beginning of 2008 was the best thing I've ever done (birth of BMJG excepted). I have often told my friends that 'The Happiness Trap' is a worthwhile read and going through this with Veronica made it also more rewarding. Not only did I come to terms with the 'delayed grief' I was experiencing, but I learnt so much about being 'alive' not only when things are fantastic but moreso, when life's direction sometimes takes a turn for the worse. Most of us who teach yearn! for the holidays to come, but then when it's here we sometimes struggle to really relax and just 'be'... usually I am like that, but not in the Winter of 2009. The many hours of just having nothing in particular to do has been great. I really am at peace with my life - hopefully I am only half way through it - but at this point the word 'fine' doesn't only mean 'end' in Italian it also means 'healthy and well' in English (amongst other meanings) so I'll go with that...
Beautiful Denise, with a tear on my cheek love it x
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